Happy Anniversary My Sweet Matthew!

So I have this great life - with this very funny and loving guy and yet I am over weight.
That really doesn't make sense.
I will make sense out of it though. I surely will.
Because I want my time to be healthy and I want to live well with this Goofy Great Guy. Or as he would say - My GGG.
I need to start making sense of my intake - and the ambition of getting off my butt - desk jobs will be the end of me one day - I am going to get the fitbit to help me be in motion more. I need something that reminds me or I can get glued to a chair for hours.
So the deal is - One year from now I want to visit this Blog here and not be afraid to have a full picture of us placed here, because there will be less of me.
He has never measured my self worth in pounds. That means a lot.
Thank you for being an inspiration to my life Matthew!
Next year - less of me!

Lessons from a Rotten Pear

I got through my first clean eating day.
Some may think that is funny - but for me - the hard part is not licking a spoon or eating an extra bite.
Even when I was losing like crazy last year I privileged myself by a 'foodie gift'. A cookie because I was a good girl that week, but not placed in my caloric budget.
This morning I grabbed a pear for my mid-morning snack.
I sliced that beautiful sweet luscious fruit with a small knife to find a very grey mattery icky inside. UGH!
Going to the back door of my office I tossed it out to the birds, sat down and sulked at the loss of my 'fix' but then I thought about it a little more.
This is more than a body fix for me - this is not a chance to gloat over another, or to feel better than anyone else. This is not going to be ego boosting in a negative way - this change of life is going to be just that - a change of life. I know some people don't get that.
I want to be just as sweet, real and generous inside as the outside. This is an internal growth as well as an external.
Because - we will know each other by our fruit. Yeah?


 

Catching the Moment

So - I am being called to the carpet. I am ADHD about my eating habits and it is funny how I get called back to the carpet time and time again. (Thank you God for not giving up on me as often as I do myself) So I had slid off my eating pattern again - letting tiny excuses running loose in my head.
Well one of my jobs is to collect information from nutritionists, doctors, fitness and food gurus etc..and lately I have thought to myself, I have enough information in my head and within my power to excel at one of these positions and yet here I am years down the road, still over weight with a pocketful of health issues (less than before) and excuses.
My internal voice said "Karen - Do you want to be an inspiration or do you want to be a statistic?" Hello! Well?
As I thought to myself - 'no kidding, it is time to wake up' - I began to wonder if I have the power within me to go completely clean eating. As I engaged in this dialogue I opened the Strawberry Festival page to find me, stuffing a nacho in between my lips, on camera - front and center.
At first I was furious with the photographer. What?! Why?! Then I realized I have no one to blame but myself. I cannot hide the fact that I had chosen wrong. So I owned it. And I now am the sole owner of my what, ifs, buts, and wonder..and am owning full blame. Each and every day counts,
So this horrifying bad picture of me stuffing a nacho between my lips is going to go up on my blog, and I am going to make it my aha! moment.
I am using it as my first stepping stone down a path of determination, a no-short-cut-no-excuses path!